how YOU are saving me from anhedonia
i will be using the word anhedonia a lot in the next paragraph. thank you now keep reading
i am a pseudo-anhedonic girl. but first off, honestly, i have lost all interest in things that used to be fun (excludes: shopping) and cannot focus on one hobby to save my life. all i am doing is studying psychology to further psychoanalyse myself and understand my disorders more but really it isn't working. there is too much to learn about a borderline personality and too little time for me so i am always reading and trying to garner new facts. anyway, my boyfriend has been saving me from anhedonia recently because when i spend time with him i do feel joy which is the total opposite of the whole schtick of anhedonia. and so are you. really, talking to people i love and cherish brings me a different (better) type of joy so thank you for saving me from this life devoid of pleasure and whimsy. not even in the, Wow, i'm so emo, i don't have emotions (in case you were wondering i do have lots of emotions) more in the way that someone is shoving nihilism down my throat and i'm choking on it. anyway, i really think i can beat the anhedonic demons because my therapist told me if i FORCE myself to do things that usually would bring me joy but now don't i will finally find my spark again. i like writing blogs, so i am back at it. i'm going to go shopping tomorrow. that brings me joy. really, i just need to find the small things that make me happy and i think i'll be okay. that's it for today's entry.... remember if you ever feel even the littlest bit anhedonic try hitting up a friend or make yourself do something you used to enjoy, i think it works. (does not apply to sex, i asked)